I thought you already had been given a dx of BPD and didn't want to accept it because of the dissociation and was trying to fit your experiences into a different disorder like DID and why I said what I did about dissociation being a part of BPD for you just as it is part of PTSD for me.

You said you should just probably listen to the doc but I am confused about what the doc actually said.

I'm sorry for the confusion,I'm having a hard time understanding and following what you are saying.Sometimes when I'm having PTSD symptoms I'm easily confused like that.Sorry.