Dear MC,
When will I stop being so paranoid you'll cancel at the last minute? Then again, last time I started to stop worrying about that, you did have to cancel... (when your wife passed away...or actually after her funeral, since somehow you still saw us in the time between that?) So...guess my OCD says I have to keep worrying, up until we're sitting in your office. Of course, I also worry D will come home from school sick. Or that something else will happen...

I just want to see you. I want to know that everything's OK after my boatload of e-mails over the past 2 weeks. That you're still there and still feel safe after I was stupid enough to admit to you that I felt safe with you... And hopefully to get a handshake before session this time, because that will show you read that e-mail and understand that it's important to me, even if it's awkward in the new office because of the door.

That, and, well, I guess there's stuff H and I need to talk about, since I stupidly showed him that one e-mail...so, you know, actual marriage counseling stuff.

Love you and hope to see you at 4 (I hate later appt. times--more time for something to go wrong!)
LT