So I’m going to try to make this as short as I possibly can. My mother emotionally abuses me. Keep in mind, I’m only 13, turning 14 in 16 days. Back to the main part, my mother just doesn’t treat me like she’s my mother. At all. She screams at me for every move I make. Yea, there will be times that I screw up, but to her, I screw up all the time. The worst part about everything is the extreme level she takes it to. She even threatens me, like just an hour ago, she threatened to “choke to sh** out of me” because I guess I was “disrespecting her” by telling her sorry for something so small and I guess she got mad at the way I said it even though I said it like any regular person would. And it wasn’t the first time. She’s threatened to:

Knock my head off
Choke the sh** out of me
Punch me in the throat
Kick me in my stomach, etc.

**And I don’t know if I should be worried, or prepared. And when I mean prepared, I mean getting ready to use self-defense. When I mean worried, I mean calling the police or running to a neighbor’s house. My mom has never been married, which means there was no divorce history or anything that could have made her this angry at ME. She doesn’t give me any freedom, whatsoever. If I’m going over my friend’s house, it takes a 48 hour verification from her, saying I can go. I just wanna be a TEENAGER. I’m still in my early teens, anyway. I don’t know why, but to me, she wants me to be a grown-up like I’m in my 30’s or something. She doesn’t treat me like a child. Again, she yells and screams at me EVERY DAY. She threatens me almost every day. I’m scared she’ll actually try to choke and kill me one day. She’s never been this angry with me.

****She makes me wonder: Does she really love me or does she just want me to obey her because she birthed me? I would confront a counselor, but last time I did that, she put on the innocent parent act and made it seem like I was the bad guy. I try to act older than my age, but I don’t think she understands that I’m only 13 and yes, I will screw up sometimes but that doesn’t give you the card to emotionally abuse me every single time that happens. I almost killed myself one day because of her. It was too much for me. I just wish she’d be more supportive and helping and caring. When she’s screaming at me, I cry every time. And when she sees one tear slide down my face, she automatically thinks I’m “weak” and she even called me a b**ch one time of that and never in my life I would think to hear my own mother, the person who is supposed to love and care for me, call me a b**ch. I just need some real good advice on how to deal with an emotional abusive mother. I really don’t want to live with her, but I also don’t want to live with anyone else in my family. A foster home would be better, but I don’t know. I wouldn’t want to live with anyone related to her. Sorry this was lengthy