In my last session with my old T I told her that I was going to miss her and she said that she'd miss me too! I then asked her if I could call her with big news and updates on my life and she said "of course!" So, in the past 2 weeks since our last session before terminating, 3 good things have happened to me work wise so I decide to call T to tell her. I've been struggling about changing careers and took on 2 new PT jobs since we ended and also something really good happened with my old job. I'm like a new person compared to how I was the past couple of months and I'm so relieved and truly thought that she'd want to know.

I called her yesterday morning and she didn't call me back until this morning (no big deal) but I got the feeling when I was trying to give her the updates that she was acting like, "Why are you even telling me this?!" I just felt like her responses were not heart-felt but forced. We were on the phone for literally 2 mins, 14 seconds and I hung up feeling horribly! I wish that I had never reached out to her and am in so much pain now. I feel like an idiot! I'm also regretting that I ever shared all kinds of personal things with her.

I got in my car after talking to her and screamed at the top of my lungs, "F*** You T!!!" That made me feel slightly better. I'm back home crying and in my bed now.

New T says that I can email her but I'm not sure if this is the type of thing that would warrant reaching out to her. I'm afraid to email her about how I'm feeling because I'm probably just over-reacting but it seems so real to me. This would probably be a good time to test the waters so that I can find out exactly what types of things are appropriate to email her with.