For me, I couldn't get adequate help until I was so far gone that I had plans on hurting other people to get ahead.

I finally went to the mental health center a couple of years ago because I was so desperate for help after having a falling out with a girl that I liked that I was honest with the therapist that did my intake.

I told him if I don't get some help now I will live my life as a rogue and screw people over to get ahead because I hate humanity and if people can't love and accept me, I will force them to and they will regret hurting me.

Oh and I called myself the "darkness incarnate" and told them how I worship death and other crazy B.S to further motivate them into action.

Best choice I made.