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Originally Posted by zoiecat
Has anyone experienced a Memory of Abuse where the first half you ate in your body and feeling the physical feelings you did at that time, but as the memory progresses to a worse part you switch to viewing it from outside of your body and you pretty much lose the physical sensations? I am wondering if that was the moment i split or dissociated as a kid or if my current memory system is just a bit off and not ready to go all the way there.
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Yup, I've had that 'leaving my body dissociation', both during the child abuse and later during a hospital incident. I suppose we can only deal with so much - when it gets too awful, we check out and someone else takes over or we move ourselves to a safer place (for me, it was often on the ceiling). I have lots of memories of people coming inside my room, the door shutting and then everything goes black.
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