well, I slept about 4 hours. Have a long day ahead of me with lots of study. Just hope my brain works. Mood mixed. Was hypo yesterday but went dark last night and almost ran from the IP facility I am in. So impulsive, agitated and irritable. Feel wired. Wish I could sleep but it is 6am here so need to get up and get into it...and I am not tired anyway. Had 15mg Diazepam and 2 mg of Clonazepam last night to calm me down but still couldn't sleep much. Feel such rage and wild. This is not good. Hopefully, I will calm down as the day passes.

Still have yet to process my friends death (yesterday) due to my moods but I guess that will come with time. Have waves of sadness then go happy/mixed again.