I'm in a weird place right now but I don't know if it is part of my BP or because honestly my life really sucks. I have nothing to keep me occupied no matter how hard I want it. I can't sit still but I have no motivation. I feel like I'm going out of my mind. I have had desires to SI (I haven't acted on it) and I'm not really sure why. I also find myself wanting to take more of my meds. I just want to be numb, I don't want to feel anything anymore. If I had the money I would stay drunk. Any insight on this? Does this happen to you? I could really use some input right now, thanks.