Thank you all for helping me. I find such comfort on this site. I calmed down and prepared to go. I even baked. Unfortunately anxiety attacks exhaust me. It can take a few days to physically recover. Sunday morning my mood was good but I was too physically drained to go. I spent the day in bed too tired to do anything, even read. I was so disappointed in myself. I feel trapped in a cycle. I have an overnight trip planned for the end of the month. Wish me luck. Thanks again.