This sounds like a difficult situation.

Have you taken a pregnancy test to be sure that you are pregnant? If not, I recommend taking one ASAP or going to a doctor's office and taking one there.

As for the baby...that is a toughie. I did not see you mention abortion at all so I imagine that is not something you would consider? You don't sound ready to have a child but I know some people could not go through with an abortion, and that is OK. Just be prepared to have social services become involved and the possibility of not being able to keep the child.

Please keep posting as you need to, we are here to listen!