Hello Jade: I can relate to this. I've wondered if, in my case, there's a possibility I sustained some brain damage early in life that caused some of my problems. There were some things that happened to me that I think, nowadays, would be taken quite seriously. Back when I was young, no one paid much attention to such things. But I've also always struggled with a lot of anxiety all of my life. And I think the sorts of things you describe are frequently the result of pent-up anxiety.

I'm glad you're seeing a psychologist. As Thunder Bow wrote, healing takes time. It's important to dedicate yourself to the process. I myself am not on any psych med's nor do I see a therapist. Neither has ever been of much help to me. (But that's another story.) Instead, I maintain a daily meditation & yoga practice. I also walk outside around our neighborhood quite a bit.

I do a lot of reading in the areas of Buddhism & mindfulness meditation. One thing I'm a "stickler" about, as we used to say, is staying away from TV programs, movies, etc. that portray graphic violence & unbridled anger. I also avoid loud raucous music. I do some reading, from time-to-time, regarding recent research findings regarding the brain. And two things stand out for me with regard to these findings. One is that much more of who we are, & what we do, is controlled by areas of the brain to which we have no conscious access than we would typically imagine. The other is although we may consciously understand a violent TV program, for example, is just fiction, non-conscious areas of the brain react as if what we're seeing is actually happening. The conclusion I draw from this is that by watching TV programs or movies that contain violence & unbridled anger, we're probably damaging non-conscious areas of our brains in ways we don't even realize. I personally prefer not to take the risk. Instead I choose to fill my mind with the types of beneficial, constructive knowledge I gain from the types of reading I described above. I believe there is a lot we can do to improve our day-to-day lives by managing our surroundings as well a what we do & do not subject ourselves to.

One very good book I could suggest to you, if you're not already acquainted with it, is Jon Kabat-Zinn's book: Full Catastrophe Living- Using the Wisdom of Your Body and Mind to Face Stress, Pain, and Illness. This book details the stress reduction program that was (& presumably still is) offered at the University of Massachusetts Medical Center. It was written with the intent that readers would be able to implement the program at home. (By the way, should you decide to take a look at this, the body scan narrative that is talked about in the book is on YouTube.) I wish you well...