(((Trace)))-some of them could be voyeurs, you know. The person who stalked me x.... Thanks for reminding me its the past So glad you are all here, it feels different now.

(((Nicknamed))) one thing i noticed helped me is not thinking before doing so I don't get caught up in the anxiety and excuses etc. It doesn't have to be a habit yet-thinking before doing is what makes it a habit afterall, right? My reflection of the day, anyway.

Today I did my cardio gym routine despite it being so hot in there and being so tired and so much to do (didn't let my thoughts drift to that stuff too much). Then I couldn't access my music. Given all that, I only burned 1/2 the calories, didn't work as hard.

I have to do it 6-7 days a week to make it work, so it becomes a habit. I've done it in the past by forcing myself to without thinking as i think it will be really helpful for the physical aspects of my depression.

(((reb569))) I like Trace's idea about lists. Maybe you crave stimulation and get bored? Or maybe you have focus issues? I haven't been able to read books in a long time, it's hard. Maybe you are the creative type. I have an idea-since all that is mental, or at least it seems, look at physical stuff. Do grounding stuff with sand, stones, trees outside. See if that helps.