i went to see my doctor she wants to give me anti-anxiety meds which i hate taking because in the past they made me so sleepy and i know they can be addictive.

she said you could go on stress leave but than i would be coming back to the same toxic environment, the only solution i can think of now is to be honest with my manager, in a non defensive way, that some of things she is saying is causing my anxiety to go through the roof, and create more in errors because of that.

i have always had hard time speaking up for myself BUT if i don't than nothing will change and it will just get worse.