For you, Echos!

Dear MC,
Sorry for sending another e-mail. I feel horribly insecure since telling you about the "feeling safe with you" thing. I was hoping today's session would make me feel better about that. Yeah, you did start with the handshake, which I appreciated. (Though it seemed a little too forced maybe, like OK, Here you go, LT, happy now?) But then the thing about the session length...which contradicted what you'd said a few weeks ago. That just set off the triggers in my head. I really really wish I could just talk to you on the phone for a few minutes. But I was too afraid to ask for that directly in the e-mail, just said I wished I could talk to you. And that I knew you'd say we can talk in session, but when we try to talk about transference stuff in there, it tends to just be awkward, or end up being more about H's reaction to it, if it happens at all (see: last week). So maybe I'm hoping you'll get what I'm trying to say and offer a call?

Then again, the past few weeks have been very H&I's marriage-focused. So maybe it would be OK to spend a few of the 45 minutes (sigh) on me?

Ugh, please don't take too long to write back. OK? (And don't take e-mail away.)
Love,
LT