Whats been bothering me is that the people I hung out with I didn't really talk to much so I felt alone around them. Some people didn't really care and some people I really wanted to be friends with but I had a hard time talking with them. I think I'm just feeling this way cause I feel like I've missed out and I felt alone around people probably cause people would isolate me back in elementary and middle school. There where a lot of mean people back in those days. Then in high school people didnt really seem to care. I mean people seemed to like me but didn't really seem to care cause maybe I'm to boring for them. Im a really quiet person too so they probably just saw me as someone who just rarely talked but sometimes its just I have a hard time talking to people. I dont know its really complicated. I don't really care about having a lot of friends its just that theres certain people I really liked that I wanted to be friends with and still do and I feel like I just missed out on things I really wanted to do. I would try talking to some people sometimes but it didn't really work out. I just feel like years of my life was pretty much just wasted and thats whats been bothering me.