It has been an incredibly difficult day. Last night I was wild, impulsive, agitated and irritable. Despite meds I hardly slept. I woke feeling worse. The nursing staff wanted to put me in a locked ward but I managed to talk my way out of it and make arrangements to keep me safe.

What I found worked best today was hiding in bed, curled up with my pillow between my arms as a comfort. This kept me safe and gave me the rest I needed. This afternoon I felt a bit better but still feel quite agitated. It is horrible and I just want it to end. Hopefully, tomorrow will be a better day.