True. They do not understand.
I think of suicide every dam day of my life.
My first attempt was with pills & I relive that day, parts of it, a flash or feeling of it every day bec I put vitamins & minerals in my mouth every morning. It's an automatic trigger.
Some days it's just a puff of air across my brain..& others...well the thought is always there.
As a positive it's made me very comfortable talking about death which some find disturbing. But in some cultures it becomes a main pillar to be viewed everyday bec it is inevitable.
In the US, many have issues discussing this. I welcome it & love to study it.

Wish you contentment!