Yes, I think this is a great response. I too ask - just what kind of answer is it you want. What kind do you expect? Why do you feel this is what you need? From who/what are you getting the message this is what is right? Is this about being Spiritual or merely about getting answers? I wonder if it might be helpful pondering these things. It is possible that the manner of the answers you seek might even be the source of your struggles. Just a thought.

The Ibuprofin is a concern for me. Even taken in repeated regular doses it will damage your heart and liver permanently - even more so than your smoking will.