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Originally Posted by subtle lights
I relate a lot with what you've said here. I've worked on myself tirelessly and (I thought) self-lovingly in the past two years. I really tried everything. Grounding techniques, connecting to my inner child, changing beliefs, clearing energies, working on boundaries, etc etc.
I'm not saying those aren't good, they are.
Every method can be helpful for someone.
And it's not even about methods, it's about the realisation.
But in my journey towards self love I've somehow lost it and ended up becoming extremely sensitive, my natural high sensitivity multiplied...Which made life seem unbearable. Being conscious of here and now feels like it's ripping my soul out. Everything is magnified, connecting to people is painful, being alone is better but still painful.
There is also this constant unease of being in my body, especially as I've been told since being small that my body is not okay...
The "being inferior" program is hard to override. I don't know...
I still have some of the perspective you mentioned though, the love is there, hidden in the corner of my existance.
But I'm tired now of all this...
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I hear you and can relate to a lot of what you wrote.
Tired is tired. You can honor that and do everything you can to nourish yourself. Work from *tired*. Go into it, sleep, rest, get massages, find what will comfort you. Rest is very important and naps are great. Make resting comfortably in a nice bed in a nice room your gift to yourself. Loving yourself is being there for yourself when you need it.
Things change, we change - it won't be this way forever. Believe it will get better, power of the mind can create anything - from misery to heaven on earth. So many books on the subject of the power of the mind, have you read any? If you'd like some recommendations - would be happy to post.
As you think, so it is. Think good thoughts.