You know, besides the fact that I don't have the money, I really don't want to enter a setting where the understanding of my limitations would be hard to come by, so to say, which in my experience excludes educational institutions... In fact, I fundamentally don't trust my country's education system after my experience within it. During the end of it and after, I tried actually studying subjects I was interested in on my own - bought textbooks, did flashcards. But all that got me was derision of people on the Internet for being a jack of all trades and master of none. But for some reason cramming disparate random subjects in the university was great.
So yeah, I'm stuck in my past and bitter about it, what's new.
Actually, my degree is as a chemistry teacher, and beyond the fact that I can't function in front of a class, chemistry is the subject that I hate now. So I can't really apply as a programmer, because they always want a computer science degree, and it's useless to consider overselling myself.
Sorry, it's not constructive, but kind of therapeutic to offload this.