Ive gotten like that - its what i call, when the bad stuff leaks out. Its why im in therapy, because otherwise the bad stuff just leaks out and i hate myself. But here, your parents almost act like therapists - they STAY THERE psychologically and kinda mop up the leaky stuff! That is so great, really. Ive had horrible stuff leak out onto my t - some of it i didnt apologize until YEARS later. But eventually all the bad stuff leaks out and is GONE.