For most of my life I had what I called noise in my head. I could not hold on to the exact thoughts so I just labeled it as noise.

Sometimes thoughts would just pop into my head. I would shake my head and think where did that come from?

I knew I was not normal even in my teenage years. You have to have sane, sensitive and loving people in your life in order to get an early diagnosis. The dysfunctional family promotes the mental illness. They generally are emotionally ill people who have their own mental problems. So most of us do not have a clue until we get away from those family members. I did not know until I was 36. Even then I did not know my alters and had no communication with them.

There still is minimal co-consciousness. Sometime between 1992 and 1999 some of the amnesiac barriers started to break down and I recovered some memories of my behavior in these other personalities. It was scary but it proved that if the people in my life had communicated with me sanely I would have been diagnosed in my teens or twenties.

I am 62 so now there is little hope of me knowing my alters.