hi everyone
so today i got up ready to go to work, and i was hit with a wave of anxiety that i haven't felt in a long time. when i was at work, i was ready to burst into tears at my desk. i finally asked my manager if i could talk to her by that time the tears were already in my eyes.

we had a 1 hour chat, i told her how i was feeling and everything that has gone.... she was sympathetic thank God, our minds like to tell us otherwise, she said i need to give you constructive feedback on the errors you have been making, and she was trying to find out how i lost my confidence along the way, which i have.... i know lately because of the errors i have been double checking and kinda of edge which has probably caused me to make more instead of less.

anyways she gave me some good feedback, i think i am ready for a change and i know our dept will be shrinking in a year or two because we are closing down the Group side of our business i work insurance, this gives me time to think what I really want to with the rest of my life.

it was a better day i am glad i communicated to her how i was feeling and i feel like a burden has come off my shoulders. i just have to take it ONE DAY AT TIME...can't worry about the future what i tend to do.

thanks again everyone for replying...means alot