I totally understand that Pegasus. It can be so frustrating and wearing... and sometimes scary.
I joke by saying I'm eccentric and I can tap dance very well when I don't know what's going on. I can't help to think- what could I do if I didn't have to spend the energy trying to figure out what people are talking about or where I got this or what the heck happened. Things I imagine sometimes that people take for granted, though I don't know for sure.
I wish you wellness Pegasus and an ear to listen.