Happy Birthday IntentOnHealing! Hang in there,we are all here to listen and give support. I am 52 now,i have not had bipolar my whole life. It seemed to be triggered/come out after post partum depression...i'm hoping you can find some small thing each day to be happy about,be proud of, or each day be able to forgive yourself for 1 thing...1 think to be thankful for..
When I was really depressed this was how I had to live/think 1 day at a time.