I am on edge. I don't like it. I feel like I have motivation, but just want to lie in my bed and watch TV. God, this is awful
I used to take 300mg Lamictal, and eventually cut it down to 250.
My Wellbutrin was 300, and I went to 400 and was downright angry, so I went down to 350.

I cycle so often, that I always have to tweak my meds.

It is like a living hell. I have motivation (not a ton, but more thatn when I am in a depressive ep)

I don't have much patience

My go-to lately is to go lie in bed and watch tv

I am so miserable that I am thinking about having a glass of wine just to see if it helps me feel bettwr. I am at my wits end.

I also take 10mg Lexapro,

My question is
Should I up my Lamictal bc I think this is just a really bad mixed state
or maybe up my Lexapro bc maybe I need a little more ssri?

I am ALWAYS on top of my meds. I know when to lower, increase, etc for a long time. My doc trusts my judgement but I am lost with this one.

Suggestions??????