It's a question I ask myself near everyday. But is it a question I need to know the answer to? Sometimes I think it is. Other times I think - everyone has a different opinion of what makes a person good and what makes a person bad, so whh worry on it? Why not just worry on how I feel about myself? The problem with that though is sometimes - I am not sure how I feel - about anything.. because I know too MUCH about what others think (not talking about things here or people here) and it just clogs up every "emotion sensor" and "thought sensor" I have until there is none left over just for me. So - at that point - I'm stuck.
Am I a bad person?
I don't know. I guess it depends on who you ask and when you ask them. I am always going to do things that will upset someone...but then, I will always do something to make someone laugh or smile too. I try to be honest all the time - but sometimes I fail. I try to make good on all my promises and goals - again, sometimes I fail. I try to be helpful, sometimes I fail at that too. I believe myself to be caring, giving, loving, and supportive - yet I know some who would say I lie when I say that. I am a person full of hopes and dreams, goals and once-believed aspirations. Yet, I am also a person full of faults and let downs, mistakes and misgivings.
Tell me - what is it that makes a person good or bad?
Is it if they "intentionally hurt someone" that makes them bad?
Ok, so what of the person who is born without empathy, or without the capacity to understand another's pain? To them - life is all about "me" there is no worrying about how what they do or say may affect another - and that is simply what thsir knowledge of life is, not the choice they make.
Is it if a person lies or is otherwise dishonest, that makes them bad?
Okay, so what of the person being abused and afraid to say or do something to others that may be counter-productive to what the abuser wishes?
Is it if a person is a controlling or manipulative personality, that makes them bad?
Ok - so what of those that simply cannot see beyond themselves, not because they lack empathy or emotion.. but because they had to learn to put themselves before all others in order to survive at a young age - and once in adulthood it is now a basic part of them?
Is it because they drag you down by being too depressed too often?
What about those people who rarely get to feel happy? Should they not have someone to love them?
What really makes a person bad?
Am I a bad person?
Can anyone tell me?
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