My anxiety is flaring up so much this month, I don't know why. I always have these flare ups every second month, just when I think I'm doing better I get reminded that I'm not. I'm socially anxious at every turn. Every time I say something, I regret what I said. I've gone quiet now in rooms, because I'm afraid I'll say something stupid. I feel like everyone is privately criticizing me around me even though logically, they may not be. Especially among my classmates in my tight-knit theatre program. Lately I've been really mad and judgmental in my head at my perpetual sadness and complaining... I keep having thoughts that many people would be privileged to be in my position in life in comparison to where other people are in the world...and then I feel so guilty for not being grateful. Just today while analyzing a piece of play text, someone in my class said "people complain in order to obtain status" the day after I cried in front of another classmate saying I felt lost in life. I can't help but feel like I fit that description, even though it may not have been intended to be jab at me...it felt like it. I don't know how to stop these thoughts.