I identify with what Lizard lady says,I don't have DID or alters but my inner child is frightened of everything due to extreme neglect in childhood.Sometimes I am like a frightened abandoned child,I have never thought about what I went through as a child without feeling lost and afraid so I tried not to think about it ever.I just realised most of the abuse I tolerated as an adult was due to the fear of abandonment from experiencing abandonment as a child.I get more severe PTSD symptoms when my self esteem is low and I get triggered more then too.The frightened little girl inside me feels not good enough and that she is not worthy of attention or love or respect,after all when she most needed looking after her caregivers were mostly absent.I find it hard to say out loud the words,I deserve love and respect,cos I don't really feel that I do deserve it,my self esteem is that low.