I have lived with overwhelming religious obsession (scrupulosity) for a long time. No therapist seems to really get that (either they decide to utilize religion in session or avoid the topic altogether). My girlfriend has been really patient with me. I keep going between religions, but end up back at Christianity because, while I don't believe in all of it or even agree with all of it (no offense to anyone at all), the fear of hell stops me in my tracks. I was raised Christian (in an almost cult-like atmosphere) and the fear of hell was drilled into me. The fear starts overwhelming me and I end up right back there again. My girlfriend is Christian, but she doesn't shove it down my throat or anything, though her family are very strict Christians. I almost feel like I should just give up, be Christian, let it take over my life, but at least have less fear of going to hell. But then which denomination is right? I obsess over stupid little details. I don't know what to do. This is literally keeping me from functioning properly in day-to-day life. Help!
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