Thunder Bow
Thank you for your reply. I know in my mind that that is 100% but I'm so damn impatient sometimes. I just gotta slow down

Skeezyks

I've never considered this to be honest, but it does make sense. There is nothing I can 100% refer back to but that doesn't mean it didn't happen and I've forgotten it.

I've also been very interested in Buddhism and the effects of meditation and yoga. Its just finding the motivation to take the positive step forward. As I always feel like I have no energy, trying to even start feels like a run up Mt. Everest

As for the TV shows/movies, I see exactly where you are coming from. I don't have such reactions to violence as such but heavy atmospheres in shows suck the life out of me. I recently watched the movie Logan and my goodness I was down for days. I had such a heavy feeling on me and I couldn't find anything positive in life. It was crazy that I had such a reaction to just a movie.

And I will definitely check out that book. Knowledge is power and the more information I have the better I will be

I'm glad you're seeing a psychologist. As Thunder Bow wrote, healing takes time. It's important to dedicate yourself to the process. I myself am not on any psych med's nor do I see a therapist. Neither has ever been of much help to me. (But that's another story.) Instead, I maintain a daily meditation & yoga practice. I also walk outside around our neighborhood quite a bit.

Avlady

I would love to learn a musical Instrument, I've just never been good with music

Gus1234U
I've never heard of rapid-cycling bipolar. But I will definitely do some reading on the condition and I might mention it to my therapist.