...begging them to just hear me, just accept that I have those feelings. Once they did, my first thought after 'I want to die' was 'I want to live'! I've since had many such occasions where once I've accepted a difficult feeling, I've immediately felt the complete opposite. I think maybe those difficult feelings are about the past, totally appropriate for what was going on then, and I just needed them validated - but they're not how I feel about my life today I just needed to honour the feelings I once had about my life and couldn't feel or express back then, and then release them, let go..