Well I just caught my husband in a lie, probably not the first one either I'm sure. Right in front of one of his coworkers at our home he lied about what he was going to do. Put down some much for his female boss at her house. His coworker had just told me the truth, but didn't say my husband was going too. I felt like a fool. My husband and his boss have too close a relationship and he's even attracted to her he has said in the past. I hate him even more for lying to me and embarrassing me in front of someone. He said she is paying for our mulch today and one hand wipes the other. So he is helping her. I feel betrayed because she is a flirt, single and constantly asks for his help and calls him whenever she wants to. I put my foot down and said not when you come home or if we are on vacation. So they talk prior to him leaving work, as i check his cell phone calls and he knows i do. Sometimes he erases the calls. No trust between us and no love anymore makes me feel like nothing, like I don't matter at all. And I am suppose to live like this forever or at least until he gets tired ot it and asks for a divorce. There's no boundaries between them at all and he likes it that way. She must stroke his ego and anything else he wants.

Oh well, I asked for this by staying in a marriage where just yesterday he said he is not in love with me anymore and won't show any affection as he can't fake it. I wonder how long he has been feeling this way? At least for now I have no choice and have to put up with his ways and not say anything to him or he gets really angry and starts yelling and being verbally abusive and he's already emotionally abusive to me. I pray that i can stand it until my self esteem gets higher and I can kick him to the curb and find a life for myself. I don't feel deserving of anythng right now and think I caused this by letting him get away with his abuse.