Really. I am just sitting on my *** while my parents pay for my rent, and im 25. I got a bachelors in business two years ago and am still jobless, after going through 5 different jobs. I'm in credit card debt because of my online porn addiction. I am sniffing wellbutrin, benedryl and sometimes caffeine. My porn addiction cost me $25,000 since 2012. I've been hospitalized 6 times in 3 years. I lost all my friends. I am always alone. I have no drive anymore. Nothing to live for. There are so many steps to take in order to merely get on solid ground, and i'm still having trouble with the basics of living.

Not to mention, i am wanted by the police for something i did before hospitalization.

I'm in too deep, and i did it on purpose. I wanted to self destruct, as i have sexualized my own downfall through female domination porn.

Welp.