Oh i also wanted to say - i had to "hit bottom" financially, emotionally, all kindsa ways - and tell myself, if i ever get out of this situation, i will be SO OPEN to my t - and it STILL took me those 3-4 years. It just felt very dangerous.

But that danger is just an illusion or something. I had lunch this week with a friend ive known for 30 plus years, and every time - since ive been working with current t - every time with my friend is better and more open. Its just amazing. Im a different person. Maybe she cant tell, but i sure can.