T t t... He who says i don't know is also where the negativity and brutal self-doubt come from... In his own way he thinks he's helping, protecting even, but he's not os he? This is deep, difficult work talking to him, t, and it's making me hugely emotional and every time i turn around it seems, i start crying. I have cried so much in the last day and a half since i was there. Thank you for asking me to come next week. I wish i could talk to you right now. I want you to be in this with me. Let's drum together next week. I'll bring my drum. Then you can talk to him too. I love you. Sooooo, toooooo much.