Please don't ever say "can't" in this respect. No, not right now, and surely it is impossible to imagine it, and sometimes it's insulting to think that it might be an option in the future...I know how the mind works in this area...

but... begin to take tidbits of your daily life... you can find one good thing...you can. No matter how fleeting, how insignificant it might seem (and the cognitive distortion will minimalize it and make it of no avail if you let it) but... relish it. Wink at it. There's more to come.

(((((((((hugs)))))))))))