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Originally Posted by subtle lights
It is all bad now and I'm afraid and I don't know what to do. I am mean to people who want to help. But it all hurts, it's not their fault. I still pretend I am fine...I cannot let go. Easier to be mean than to see some people dissappointed because I am falling apart. 
I'm afraid. I am so disconnected from all this...So unreal
This thought came...of an ending...and finally I felt calm.
But then it went away. I'm trapped.
(no need to reply...I don't expect it, I don't make much sense now) |
I push away those that want to help, too. In some weird way, it's like I'm trying to protect them from me.
I don't believe you're too far gone. The level of self-reflection indicates that you have enough will and fight left to keep going and work towards a solution.