Hello!
I suffer from anxiety, mostly social anxiety as I used to hate going out in public. I still struggle to do so but I found a new doctor and she put me on Sertraline which I think is Zoloft.
Anyway, I've been getting pretty stressed out lately which causes me to feel like I'm having a mental breakdown. When my brother speaks in the other room, I just want to yell for him to shut up. It seems like every little thing at that moment causes me to want to snap. I then shut myself away, using laying in bed and going to sleep.
I've also noticed I've become really paranoid lately, believing everybody, even my mom and brother, are talking behind my back. I even go out and public and if I see someone even look at me, I think they're talking about me badly or I panic that I look horrible or that I've done something wrong.
I really want to talk to a psychiatrist or psychologist. I really believe it'll be beneficial to me to help manage my stress and figure out if my anxiety is causing my paranoia and mental breakdowns or is it something more. I additionally have high moments where nothing can upset me and bad moments where every little thing makes me want to cry.

Finally, the problem is that my Mom is sort of anti-mental illnesses, if that makes any sense. She mostly believes that mental illnesses are mostly faked and that some don't exist at all. If I try to tell her what's going on mentally with me, she either changes the subject or says that it's just been a bad day or that I'm tired.
I really want to see a psychiatrist but I don't know how to convince her to let me. I am 18 but I can't just up and leave one morning to another town without telling her where I'm going. I was thinking about privately talking with me doctor, because my Mom usually goes back with me, and ask her to refer me to a psychiatrist. Then I could just tell my Mom that my doctor wants me to see someone.
I don't know what to do. I'm sorry it's a long message but do any of you have any ideas? Should I just talk to my doctor to refer me? And if I do talk to my Mom about seeing a psychiatrist, what should I say? I know she's not going to be happy about it. She always says nothing's wrong but then I'll go back into my room thinking she's mad at me and thinking bad of me.
What should I do?