Being a fugitive is extremely stressful. Many years ago, I was running around with several warrants out for my arrest, and I almost went crazy from the stress of hiding and dodging the police. It was stupid, really---didn't appear in court on one charge, didn't pay the fines on others. (I should mention that this was about 15 years before I was diagnosed.) But every day I woke up terrified that today would be the day I'd be arrested, and until I finally went to court to face the charges, I was a wreck. So I understand how tough it must be for you with all this hanging over your head. ((((HUGS))))