rxqueen..you and I are soul sisters.
I feel the same exact way as you do..completely bored..but I am not drinking now because I drank 4 days ago and I have felt like crap since...but I was thinking about drinking today (this morning up at 4am like you)...crying...feeling things I dont want to feel..thinking about things I don't want to think about..avoiding invitations for the day...not feeling like showering...my stomach is growling but I don't even want to take care of myself and feed it...

Its just a deep dark lonely depression..that alcohol fills the void for the day...but I'm not going to drink today..I don't know what the **** I AM going to do...but I'm not going to drink.