Dear T,
I'm sorry I emailed you. It was stupid of me to do it and stupid of me to expect you to say something comforting, I should know by now that is not your style. I still don't understand why though. I hate that I'm so attached to you because now I feel like I can't ever let go of you even though I want to. I want to stop torturing myself with this and go to sleep. I'm so so tired of it all. Sometimes I wish I could just throw myself on the floor and give up completely. I can't see myself moving beyond where I am now and I was relying on you to give me some hope or encouragement to keep going. I guess that was a mistake too.