I've been thinking about our last session, T, and as awesome as it was, it was horrible at the same time. I'm definitely starting to idolize you. You're the dad I wish I could have had. You validate me in ways that no one ever has before. You're amazing. I love you.

And you're retiring in December. I'm going to be destroyed.

I know I should walk away now before I get hurt again, but I can't. We're doing some really good work. Even I can see the progress.

I'll probably not schedule anything after your summer holiday. I won't tell you this, though. I'll never let you see how much of an effect you've had on me in the short time we've worked together.

I'm already shopping for someone new. I can't bring myself to ask for referrals. I need to take care of myself.

ETA: I was watching dumb videos on Instagram and I got a news alert about the Earth Day events in DC today. You probably don't remember telling me that you were going, but I do. I hope you enjoy yourself. Your passion for the environment is impressive. Mostly because I wish I could be passionate about something.