How old are you?
I'm 50. I have had some strange friendships (probably what got me Borderline traits diagnosis), but I always had friends.
From the moment I was born, I was socializing with friends, because I was thrown together with other kids because my mother was social.
I've had issues where friends have disappointed me, or proven to be not good friends, but the basic friendship is always how friendships develop commonly.
If you want to talk about yourself more on this, I'm here.

. (A friend)