Hey Everyone,
I have a friend who I chat with quite regularly online and through text. He lives in another state. I think he has some depression issues for which I urged him to seek some medical help. He didn’t do that. We try to be support for each other. He messages me last night, and he sounded like he was in crisis. He told me that he was going to take his life, and I tried to talk to him, but he kept saying that everyone would be better off without him, and he was going to post his suicide on Facebook live or send a link of him doing the deed. After some questioning, he still wouldn’t tell me what was going on. Then he sent me this message that said, “thank you and goodbye”. I have tried to message him, text, and even call him. I’ve gotten no answer. I didn’t take my meds last night and left my phone on just in case he called or sent a text. I would be awake enough to answer him and talk if he want to. He is my friend, and I’m concerned. I didn’t hear anything, and I didn’t sleep too much either last night. What sleep I did get was interrupted by a dream of him actually taking his life and the police searching for me. I haven’t taken my meds for two nights, last night and Thursday night (I had to work a function early Friday morning and was afraid I’d oversleep). I’ve tried texting and calling him when I woke up this morning, but I get no response or the voicemail greeting. I thought I was making a little progress and things were okay, but it seems like I’ve slipped down the hill again. I feel like I’m edging off a cliff. I have totally screwed up. I'm nervous. I can’t think straight. I have hives, and I don’t know what to do. Am I stupid? My head hurts.