Hello,

I'm a 47yr old married man who has been married for over 20yrs. I've only had sex 2x in my entire life (my wife being 1 of the 2). I struggle every single day with temptation and it has made my life miserable. I started taking Welbutrin for depression and it seems to have kicked up my sexual desires by 5x. Masturbating is not enough and looking at porn doesn't give me the same intense desires I get when I'm seeing women on the street. It's affected my life so much that I hate going out in public with my wife. I'm constantly wanting the other women and think about it several hours after I've seen them. I have fantasies of making out, dating them, masturbating to them in my mind, and overall I can't focus. Literally 80% of my day is spent thinking about women I come across in public.

I have been faithful to my wife up to this day and have even told her about it (that was a terrible idea because now she is more insecure). I don't want to cheat on my wife. Some friends have even suggested hookers -- which I can't do. That's just not in my nature. I've tried several therapists and all of them have told me that I have normal feelings.

This is torture and while I don't want to end my marriage over this, I don't feel I can hold on. I feel like that one woman who sees my weakness will easily get me to have sex with them. I'm lucky that no woman has been so bold.