I don't think I've fully accepted my diagnosis. In bad times, I just feel depressed, and in good times I question whether I'm really bipolar at all. Maybe I exaggerated my symptoms? Maybe a therapist, a nurse practitioner, and two psychiatrists just saw what they wanted to see and called it bipolar 1? Then I think back to my manic episodes and realize that they really were serious, and my depressions and suicidal ideation were for real. I don't know...sometimes I still wonder.