Thank you all for your replies. I am struggling hard right now and Wednesday seems like a long way off. Part of me just wants to get it over with and the other part is already choking on the words. Ugh. I am thinking about sending him an email just looking for some reassurance. He knows it's hard for me and that I don't open up to people. I hate being vulnerable. I think I just need to have him tell me that he won't push too hard. *sigh*