It's a huge change.

The fact that you are able to recognize it, says that hou have the power to overcome the thing which has been holding you back all these years. Baby steps. Don't try to rush it. Don't over think it. Take one moment as it comes.

I wish I could tell you I know what you're going through. The truth is - I have never had this particular experience. That doesn't mean I don't want to be there for you or that I don't know what it is to have your world rearranged and the floor dropped out from under you. We just had it happen in differing ways.

You have something special most of us do not - you got to live in a type of dream world for many years. If that dream world had continued to work conducively with what you were doing in this one - I would say "keep it, don't let it go"... but it didn't, so now it's time for change to take place, and sometimes change totally sucks!

My world got changed from fairy tale perfection to total misery and abuse at the age of 12 when mom died..and continued on through most of my adulthood. So in a different way I was in a dream world I could no longer carry with me and I had to make a change. I carry the memories of that more perfect time with me and they help get me through some of my harder times. Perhaps you will find you can do similar. When the "reality" of the change in the view of the world as you see it becomes too much for you to bear ... write about the view of the world as you used to know it, or close your eyes an re experience it briefly. Change is hard. Some change we cant control. Some we can. This one you have some control of. Maybe ask your doc to ease you on the med a bit slower?