Thanks, I appreciate your reply

I have to go to my cave to hibernate for the night (it's very late here)

I heard again today about the appalling waiting lists (irl) and people being let down, basically left to their own devices .. I've experienced this too, but it still saddens me.. so many people end up blaming themselves or require therapy to heal from "therapy" .. even if this is self therapy which can be an improvement on sub optimal therapy.... too many wrong fits, too many broken pieces of jigsaws.. I'm just ranting